Entirely possible…


Vision, AND a new laptop!

 My life is whole again!

glassesNew Goggles! My vision has depended on ‘readers’ and at a recent point in my life (last week) I realized that I was more than likely being defined by my looks, a caricature if you will of that woman who always has glasses on top of her head! And, her hair mussed up as a result. Whenever I went out and caught a glimpse of myself in a mirror or reflection I was horrified that I allowed myself to look like that. And after the 3rd time this week carrying driving directions to unknown places and not being able to read them… I said, “No more”!

photoNew Window to the world! Life without a real computer; a full on laptop and a life with 100+ pair of readers is not an effective or productive life. My old laptop was in computer ICU and finally became unusable; despite my efforts. My iPhone is wonderful and my iPad is wonderful because it is a bigger than my iPhone and easier to play Bejeweled Blitz and get a better score — that’s about the greater benefit of the iPad. And besides, sometimes we need the BIG picture and the tool to sit getting down and dirty with the work that needs a full on computer. I didn’t need anything showy, just something to use. Therefore this DELL, the only one of 5-computers on the shelf at Sears. Yes Sears I wanted to charge it – not pay for it! Sears had 5 Dell Laptops; 4-without touchscreen, 3-with touchscreen. Now Sears has 2-with touchscreen.

Touch screen = iPad on my Laptop. Very happy camper here.

What does all this above mean? It means that I can see and blog more! And job hunt.

Ya know…
I had this amazing thought; about food and life probably and I decided to “go write that down”… got my amazing new laptop and brought it downstairs to record all amazing “go write that down” thoughts, and forgot what it was.Well anyway… It will probably surface as I ramble along…

Anyway – The week in review…

calimariThursday night – I went to the first planning meeting with the other members of the charity we are building. Nice people, nice place in La Jolla for wine and appetizers. I had wine and calamari and parked Valet. Total ticket, $20. Nice!

Friday night – I was supposed to go to the movies with a friend but canceled telling her that I was just too far in the weeds with getting the home cleaned up – this includes all the boxes of letters and photos scattered in the front ‘foyer’. I was also tired and I know this tiredness comes from lack of exercise and excitement – the kind of energy that comes with exercise. (Boxes of letters are up to 100+years old from my mother’s family – more on this in another post)

Saturday night – I had family members over for dinner. I grilled Mahi Mahi, grilled corn and grilled asparagus. Ice cream with chocolate chip cookies crumbled on top. Chocolate chip cookies that I made — that I baked, that is!

Sunday… So far just chilling. It’s warm outside but I’m inside and still in my white spa robe (it’s a cold house I live in). Seriously, I look like a big polar bear in that spa robe. Although, I imagine I look like a big polar bear without the robe, too :afraid4:. Today my home is finally back in order, I have new eyes and new computer and these elements give me a great deal of less-stress. So I’m lying low and enjoying the sunshine and chirping birds!

I’m committed to a diet and fitness regime

Starting next week; like tomorrow next week…  But, today I’m enjoying (and will be enjoying) the small tidbits of left-overs from last night. Those being a few small bites of cornbread, enough brie to go with a short glass of wine later. Just small does of bad things. I figure the more crap I eat today to more motivated for tomorrow. Not the best thing or attitude to have, but …. tomorrow is about 10-hours away and what’s the harm at this point? (bad, girl, bad!) That said…

Weight and fitness

I am appalled at my size, the deterioration of me since I began training in February 2013, and the embarrassment (humility) of it all. I don’t care what people think about how I look (personal growth on my part) because I know what they think. I think it too!

And I’ve had enough of it.

My larger friends who looked up to me during my transition last year are out doing amazing things. Riding bikes, going to push up challenges, participating in 5K’s – at least walking them. What I am doing? Nothing but thinking about all the things I should be doing. I plot and get energized (the night before) of all the things I’m going to do the next day no.matter.what. And the next day I find myself waking early and ready to hit the gym. But I go back to sleep. When I wake the second time, for some reason the plan has dissolved. So I have to wonder why it’s so upsetting that I look the way I look (and feel).

These friends are doing what I should be doing are causing me grief… LOL! I get a charge in me that says, “Oh no they won’t” get fit without me. … not because I am being shallow or have to be the winner in a contest to get thin and fit (a contest unbeknownst to those who are in that contest in my head), but because “I” was the role model and inspiration to these friends. Some didn’t say so right away, other told me always. Those that didn’t tell me up front right away are the ones to asked me, where are you’re at the gym posts? You’ve been such an inspiration and when I see those posts – I go!” .

So there I have it. Cause, fact, motivation and fear
The plan I laid out a few weeks ago will still stand. Once in the morning to the smaller 24-hour fitness gym in the mall. This gym is where I can do the weights and resistance work I need to do. Their cardio equipment is only treadmills and elliptical’s – no Incline trainers; my true workout love. But, they do have a rowing machine and I will embrace using it ‘there’ because the rowing machine at the Main Gym where I trained with Andre has 3-rowing machines, but they are front and center of the TRX where Andre does 80% of his training. I would be fully exposed :afraid4:. I’m not ready to see Andre right now (I would die and so would he) so – back to the plan… I’ll do the resistance training first thing in the morning at the small gym and in the evenings after 9:30 I’ll be at the primary 24-hour fitness gym (after Andre leaves) where I’ll do my incline training. AND, I bought an expensive terry cloth spa robe. The attraction for the robe is that I always wanted this and the other is taking a Jacuzzi at the gym after my workout, showering there and coming home in my robe – ready for bed.Yes, in California we do drive around in our bathrobes!

The only difference in this plan than the last time I posted it, is that ….

I’m going to actually DO it.

I forgive myself for the weight I gained. My mom was dying and that’s all I thought about. What I don’t forgive myself for is my behavior on this topic since she has passed. That excuse (legitimate reason) is 2.2-months old. Had I gotten back on the horse right away; which emotionally deemed impossible for me, I would be down about 15-lbs by now.  That’s the hard part!


The most important thing: A well-planned plan A and a plan B


I saw this image below on my Facebook page as soon as I sat down with the best looking grilled cheese sandwich on sourdough bread!  I was tempted to spit out the bite I took … but no, “I’ll enjoy this one and … Scarlett O’Hara will about all of this tomorrow.


I used to eat clean and as I recall I didn’t workout all that much while I was eating clean. Interesting. Food for thought. Literally!

The actual plan this week,
the obstacles and the patches for the obstacles.


I have a date with my mom — another of those errands and shopping days. We had this date last Friday but something came up on her side and we didn’t do it.

THIS particular Monday is the drop dead start date for my fitness plan. To ease into it, I want to (still do) do the 30-minutes at least of Incline training. I also want to get back to the Les Mills BodyPump  class because: Even though my Trainer Friend told me that the classes are nice, and good and are good for ‘form’; and he didn’t come out and say it (he can’t) it’s 100% clear to me that he finds them on the foolish/faddish side.

That’s to be understood — he is a hard core personal trainer who likely feels as passionate about the classes and a runner feels about people who walk, or even stroll and call that a workout. Walking is exercise but even Jillian Michaels’ was quoted as saying: (something like) …anyone who parks at the back of the parking lot and feels they’re getting a workout because of the extra steps is kidding themselves. I won’t quote of course but the point being that there is serous and strenuous exercise that brings on solid result, and there is, just exercise.

“I” felt that after doing the bodypump classes for an extended amount of time that I did gain flexibility and I DID get a small version of a full body workout. The class is not to be slighted for the average workout-goer — there are plenty of good-looking bodies in that class so trainers should not be so quick to dismiss its validity. But yeah, daily dose of training and TRX, tossing medicine balls and such things — WILL bring better results faster.

And although, even at the end of the day, those of us who did serious hard-core exercise fall off the line too and fail. Quite possibly those who do the walking in the evenings might have less failure rate. LOL, but not LOL. I mean… well, you know!

So… Monday’s Obstacle & patch… I mapped out, that is re-mapped out the old schedule I had for BodyPump classes. The Monday class schedule is already a showstopper because the fist class is at 10:30 a.m. Now that could be used as an excuse to not hit the gym — but I know better than that! The plan for Monday is a trip to the gym at 8:30 a.m. for Cardio and stretching out my arms and legs on the TRX. Nothing hard-core on the TRX — just that. THEN plan to shower at the gym, dress, put on my face and head to mom’s. OR, over sleep and head directly to mom’s and do a longer and better workout around 10:00 PM. OR… a little of both!

On Tuesday I have a friend coming down for a visit — she’s not out-of-town but in a town that is a little bit far away. Likely we’ll shop and do lunch. She’s likely to arrive at 10:00 a.m.

Tuesday’s obstacle and patch…  I have the opportunity to hit the 6:00 a.m. bodypump class instead of the 8:30 a.m. class. The advantage to taking the 6:00 a.m. class allows me the do the class AND the cardio after AND more time to get ready before the friend arrives.

For the rest of the week I should have no obstacles or deviations from the plan (thus far).

The base plan:

This week:

Monday – A.M. Cardio – 40-mins to 1-hour on the Incline Trainer.
Exception: Doing this late in the evening

Tuesday – 6:30 a.m. BodyPump + 30- 40-minutes of  cardio the Incline Trainer

Wednesday – 40-mins to 1-hour on the Incline Trainer

Thursday – 30-minutes of  cardio the Incline Trainer  Resistance Machines + TRX
(this is back to the normalcy I used to have)

Friday – 30-minutes of  cardio the Incline Trainer + 12:00 PM Bodypump class

Saturday – Possibly a day off –
OR: 30-minutes of  cardio the Incline Trainer  Resistance Machines + TRX

Sunday –  8:30 a.m. BodyPump + 30- 40-minutes of  cardio the Incline Trainer

Next week: repeat with changes (more stuff)!

And I’m dusting off my old fitness log. Below is a sampling from last year. You’ll note (as I have) that my cardio calorie burns is very low for the time and intensity invested in the cardio. I don’t go by the output from the machine display but rather from what is reported on my HRM watch from my HRM strap. Now, the HRM strap will also send the (Polar) information the cardio machine and even though the machines are said to be accurate and the incline trainers will burn 3- 5X the amount of calories burned (how they advertise), this is NOT the case. The algorithms on the machine are set to run 3x more and will output 3x more calories on the display but that cold hard fact is that you WILL NOT burn 3x the amount of calories and my HRM and my heart certainly tell that story.


In a debate I had with the education & training manager at the company that produces the incline trainer used t my gym about this (nice guy, very helpful) he did indicate that the BEST actual measurement of calories burned comes directly from the HRM watch, not the machine display. Now this will make no difference in how I work out but when counting calories in and calories out —  it’s a slippery slope when the calories OUT are not logged properly — you may be way over eating, or way under eating and calories out/in are then incorrect. That said, I was concerned with how low my calorie burns were despite being IN ZONE for a strong part of my cardio.

Another nice and helpful man was the one at Sports Authority who was in an education program on … not gonna try to quote him but he was in a specialized program for sports medicine and cardiology…  Whatever.. he was he was quite knowledgeable. I was buying a new HRM because mine was old and I felt it wasn’t giving me good enough information and some of it I couldn’t seem to change — like age and weight because that would make a difference in the accuracy of the HRM output. The nice man told me that changing my weight would not make a difference but the AGE would! He told me that as we get older…. (yeah, yeah, yeah) it become harder and harder to reach a high volume of burned calories.

Well, that explains that but at 57 + change, I accept that and did keep moving forward with my program and I DID lose weight. A good deal of it.

Until the holidays! And even now, into the new year.

That’s all for now folks!

Much to do on this lazy day until it gets too dark to do them. That leaves me with about 2-hours! Man! I am just getting too relaxed these days. And, this is a good reason to get back into my gym clothes!