Interview drama and the waiting game

I had an interview today!

waiting

But, the waiting game is the hardest. When I think of all the efforts and hoops I went through last night to prepare for this interview; I even had to run out to a clothing store to get an/and/or lightweight top to wear under my old suit jacket, or a new suit jacket or both. I brought home both.

About the clothes first; With the weight-loss I was finally, finally able to fit into a very nice Jones New York dress suit jacket which I purchased 5-years ago in 2009. I wore it to one interview and even then I couldn’t button the front button. As I got fatter and fatter I got to a point where I could no longer wear it and even fake that it doesn’t fit — oh my, the buttons and the gap between the buttons and button holes were 7-inches apart!

Fast forward to 50+lbs lighter… now the jacket is old, looks old, seems discolored or dusty (it’s black) fits me for sure but is actually too big in some areas like the back and shoulders (gaping – loved seeing that but it’s not attractive) and the buttoning of it is too high-waisted. Who knew? I mean, I could never button it before.  Well, now I know.

I could get away with wearing the old jacket but how I felt in it was more the issue. I’m an older woman (50’s) and I’m guaranteed that my competition will be much younger and those of them who really want to arrive pristine, they will be tough competition. That said, I wanted to look as contemporary as possible, rather than frumpy — and I would have.

Ya know, I just didn’t want to look like I borrowed someone elses old clothes!
I bought a beautiful short suit jacket that certainly does put the old one to shame.

I looked smashing this morning. I arrived 15-minutes early as I always do…. (and they were already ready for me, so Kudo’s for me). With all that homework I did, the clothing drama; though the jacket was easy to find and buy… and I was home in less than 1-hour of shopping, the interview was rather short and they didn’t ask me a single behavioral question. My two interviewers told me much about the job that I would be doing and I confirmed that I would be excited to take on the job and (when do I start?)…

When you have an agent who sends you on these interviews, it’s the agent that has already done the selling of me; and therefore why I had the interview at all. So, generally the interviews are short  and sweet and seem more to the point of ‘looking me over, reading me and to see if we’re going to be compatible’.

I liked the job and two ladies who interviewed me. They are the two that I would be working with and if they feel we’ll be compatible, I’m in.

Hopefully, neither of those ladies owned the black Mercedes that I probably lightly door-dinged when I got out of my car…

So anyway, a 15-minute appearance in the new suiting jacket!
I hope it was worth the $90 investment!

In other important news…

newsThere isn’t really any. I’m being very serious again about food and exercise… that over being just serious and it looks like a lb has fallen off. Onward and downward. Today I shopped for low sodium turkey breast slices, Oroweat extra fiber whole grain bread and … I guess that’s it. I’m not a fan of sandwiches. Usually they equate to high sodium, too much bread and any sandwich must have cheese. Fortunately I don’t like mayonnaise and always use mustard.

My trainer is constantly after me about eating at least up to 1500-calories a day. I’m finicky and certain things that people do eat that is low-fat and high in protein are things I don’t like. Hummus, black beans, soy stuff; stuff like that to get calories and protein are things I won’t eat. I try not to eat grilled chicken salads because of the dressing and the need to prepare the chicken for the salad. Too much work and why would I buy lettuce that will go bad in a day or two and then the fat in the salad dressing issue. No, don’t like just vinegar, so. So it’s hard and lunches for me are the hardest. Anyway, the sandwich thing is pretty easy and highly portable so I have gone this route for my lunches. Got.to.eat.

Sandwich was delicious.

Last night I texted my trainer that I would not be able to do the session at 6:00. I wasn’t contacted until 3:30PM for the interview which was scheduled for 9:00AM the next day. I had to ‘study’, get clothes together, get hair washed night before to save time in the morning, and so on, not to exclude the inevitable impromptu shopping trip! Sure, training is only an hour investment in time but… getting there: 15-minutes, warm up: 30-minutes, Training: 50-minutes, getting home: 15-minutes, shower — as long as it takes. That’s more like close to 2-hours and I wasn’t up that distraction or interruption of my time.

Anyhoo…. must go put up Halloween lights!

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Shhh… Don’t tell my Trainer!

Don’t tell my Trainer

…that this evenings cardio session went very quickly and basically, a piece of cake!

I always run into him; or rather him into me when I workout at night. The man is a beast and trains people until, oh, about 8:00 PM and then he’s on his own time at the gym working out and absolutely doing his rounds checking up on his clients. Knowing this, I can’t skip workouts and should do them in the evenings so that he can see me there. That’s his thing: “I want to see you here every day”. And it’s not like he can’t check on the check-in logs but you guys know what I mean. As well, the BodyBugg doesn’t lie and this is exactly why he wants me wearing it.

BodyBugg report (BodyMedia, inc)

The more I wear this and the more I study it’s reports, the more I get it. For example: Last night I was looking things over and saw a message on my calories burned line that read: “We guesstimate that you are going to exceed your calorie burn target by about 172-calories”. It says that because the day was not quite over and all calories had not been accounted for. My Bugg is programed for being upright; LOL not lying down, from 6am to midnight. So, it will continue to, and I will continue to burn calories — those that we burn just by living — up until midnight. (Then I go into sleep — lying down mode, and sleep mode that is).

Last night I panicked — How am I going to burn 172-caloires?? Oh yeah, that’s right, I just have to move around a little more and those calories that we burn just by living will add up and a little activity will booster it further.

So I went into my closet and hug up all those clothes on the floor; neatly folded but needed to be hung up – for the record. An hour later I came back and re synced my Bugg and it showed I had burned off the 172-calories — and then some.

I also realized; and maybe I’m a slow learner that every second that I am not attached to this thing is lost information and makes data inaccurate.

So the question is: When do I take the time to charge it?

And let me tell you people — this thing is ug-ly. I’m taking my mom to a doctor appointment tomorrow and while it’s nice out these days, I’m going to have to hide it under a sweater. (She doesn’t know about all of this just yet). AND — this is the newest version which comes in WHITE with a white/grey armband. Mine is already dirty. Inside. Thanks to my spray tan. I hope there are replaceable bands online. The old ones did have them and I always saw them at the gym. Of course when I wanted to buy one tonight I’m told there aren’t any and that now they only carry the new BoodyBuggs and there are no accessories. That’s just my luck.

Anyways, I was hoping I could wear it only sometimes and do my diet and fitness incognito — but impossible. I should wear it proudly and maybe I will someday — when I am a walking example of its success AND that the armband doesn’t show all the smushy fat around it.

Progress

7-days straight at the gym!!! My home scale gave me the same weight as the scale at my Trainer’s on the first day so when my scale showed a loss of 5.5-lbs this morning, I was excited but I’m going to wait, and believe that when I see it on his scale! The disadvantage I now have  is the night weigh-in and the sodium that was in my store-bought chicken breast — slices. Deli meat.

Yeah, I had to buy the sliced chicken, and I mean HAD TO make a grilled chicken salad and the sooner the better because I was way off my food schedule. None of the chicken in my freezer had been defrosted so in trying to stick to the plan I bought some sliced chicken by Oscar Meyer. And yes, as you can imagine, it tasted like hot dog and the sodium in my food log today as a result of it is SO HUGE that I got a warning along with a congratulations on my food intake. Basically that I did excellent of food again today and with a stiff warning about sodium.  Noting here that I NEVER buy that stuff and only cook real chicken breasts.. but this was an unfortunate emergency.

The interview suit jacket that didn’t fit well enough to wear for interviews last week… because the front button and button-hole were MILES apart… Folks, that jacket fit this morning. Not completely to button but close enough for each side panel to meet me in the middle and close enough now to wear. Now that I don’t need it. For a while anyway…

That is a lot of change in just one week, no?

The greatest challenge(s)

1. The food. The food and choices and how much  — it’s all a new experience now. The way what you eat unfolds at the of the day in reports (the science) based on everything else recorded is crazy. Crazy good. I’m also having difficulty, evidently, making the right choices — the most difficult is to remember to have a serving of healthy carbs with a serving of protein; never to have one without the other. Kashi GoLean is both. Well at least I’m getting that right.

2. Staying motivated. I’m really excited and fired up now in all the newness and the toys; especially after the interview suit incident, but I worry about how long I will stay excited!? There will be a great challenge here to stick with the program but I know that “A” won’t tolerate that! He has a lot at stake in this too. He wants my before and after photo on the wall as one of his success stories. He flat-out told me, he wants that for him and the success for me. Win-Win!

What else?

My free days are numbered (before I start my full-time job). Today was luxurious! I slept in until 6:30; which actually pissed me off because I wanted to sleep later and I seemed wide awake. BUT no, I fell back to sleep and had a crazy cool dream. Dreams. I love them. I woke at 8:45 and that was delightful.

Tuesday I have to take my mom to the doctor but as far as she’s concerned, I won’t stay for dinner with them because I have already planned to meet an old co-worker for dinner and idle chit-chat. The real story is that I have my training appointment at 8:00PM and these cannot be missed — it’s not tolerated and is probably in my contract. I will probably tell my mom about the training in time but not until I really “start to show” and she starts asking questions. I just don’t want to get into it and talk about it or be watched as I shrink (and what I eat) make that information something her tell everyone. Only me, my best friend and my trainer know about this for now.
(Evening workout and cardio)

Wednesday looks free — I hope!!
(I hope to do the Wednesday Body pump class and some cardio; always the cardio but bodypump class depends on my availability).

Thursday is a work day but a training work day. Friday is not a work day so it could be a free one unless someone want’s do so something. Honestly, If I have to meet one more person for lunch… 3 lunch dates in the last week and a half and one tomorrow with mom after the appt .
(evening cardio)

Friday. Hoping very much to have this free day as well (yard work, which I will enjoy)
(Cardio and Bodypump)

Saturday – Training first thing in the morning and cardio as well. Home by 9:0o am and I have plans to see an old friend.

Sunday — Everyone leave me alone!

And Monday — Join the ranks of Full Time employment!

What I ate Wednesday

Wow you guys!

Last week I put up a lot Costco foods photos because I was lacking in food shots. I posted artistic pieces; those that I took of things that I bought at Costco and how fun that post brought the most visitors and the most comments!

You never know, and THANK YOU!

That said, in my post yesterday I wrote about hiring a trainer.  It’s a long and positive tirade but I at the end I wrote that the only pics I’d be posting this week are these two — the worst foods ever that I ate as my parting shots of bad health!

Next week, nothing but healthy things!!! 

Please note that I didn’t eat much of the Artichoke hearts at all. I was so looking forward to them and I thought the friend I was with was going to share them with me! The rest of those goes for a quick hit in my deep fryer to finish them off tonight. My (new) trainer told me that I could eat one thing tonight that was not the best for me. (Last meal-ish) IF it was only 1-serving. Well, this is artichokes and was 1 serving at the restaurant — and it’s been half eaten so it looks like they’ll be the last meal.

Please note that I ate only the burger; as if that wasn’t enough… and brought the fries home to freeze. They will do very well when defrosted with a hit from deep fryer! (For other people, of course)

bad 2-1

bad 1-1

Goodbye heart attack food! Hello new and upcoming slim girl!

 

Things are looking up?

Lunch at Nordstrom’s

nordstromcafe1“Grilled Skirt Steak Chimichurri”
grilled skirt steak, roasted asparagus, carrots and cilantro lime vinaigrette.

The steak was amazing (very low-fat and very high protein). The Cilantro Lime Vinaigrette recipe is below. I asked the ‘front of the restaurant’ manager if he knew how the vinaigrette was made, he said (cutely) smugly, “Well of course I do” and brought the recipe book to me!

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Serve this sauce on top of your grilled skirt steak or use as a marinade.

This lunch was probably the healthiest thing I’ve eaten in a while and I thoroughly enjoyed it!

Note to self.. must make this at HOME — Often!

Areas of (signs of) positive change

A plus: The fattening and /or sugary (chocolate)  foods don’t appeal to me anymore. Do you think I’ve just had enough of the holidays?

A minus: The healthy foods don’t appeal to me, either!

A plus and minus: I was so hungry last night and my kitchen was without a single non healthy item in the house — I went to bed hungry! It was almost, and although I didn’t go out, buying or better yet having milk in the house would have been a life saver, as well as an personal-sized bag of pop chips. Milk to go with a high-fiber cereal or pop chips as something small enough (individual bag) and crunchy and salacious enough to satisfy the very minimal need I had for food last night.

Each of those items are on the top of the market list for today. Trust me!

A big and surprising plus: I have lost a minimal amount of weight and I was shocked to see the number on scale again today; despite the fact that I was terrified to look. BUT, I have to set a baseline and so I had to know. It appears (emotionally and stuffing my face-ally)  that I am finally winding down from Holiday food desires– which I absolutely believe is addicting — not in the way of being addicted to a point where you can’t stop eating it and will go to any extreme; like say in your pajamas in the middle of the night to get a fix at the grocery store, but more about the presence of the foods you’re not normally exposed to and  loving all the stuff as a… change and can’t get enough of it — all of a sudden.

I’ll just say that the creamy appetizers and the cookies and the cakes and pies (not much of a pie fan tho) were soooooo good ….. that it took me longer to stop enjoying than I had anticipated. Now they’re gone (eaten, not tossed) and that’s that! I don’t even have a taste or craving for them.

That said, by simple science and default, one would certainly see some change in their weight. As well, my diet lately had revered back to the, albeit instant Weight Control oatmeal, zucchini brownies and thought of dinner or lunch meals of a quinoa and brown rice blend with grilled chicken and asparagus in the bowl. Yes, basically a “chicken bowl”. I’m also a huge fan of grilled skirt steak (practically no fat in skirt steak) and strangely I love it with Fage-0 Greek Yogurt as a dipping sauce. I’ll also start to enjoy; actually already am enjoying lots of salads with grilled or fried chicken on top. Yes, I said friend chicken. While it’s not totally as health conscious — in moderation the breaded tenders cut up on top of a salad is fantastic. And like a child being enticed to eat his broccoli if cheese is poured over it, a few pieces of spicy fired chicken on top of an enormous mound of lettuce is not a bad thing — in the grand scheme of things. And, with some adjustments, it is highly WeightWatchers friendly.

Anyway, what I was going to say is that with the changes in my diet my stomach is responding accordingly and things/it; OK digestion, is  well… looking more healthy and happen more often. Euuu!

So yes, with one exception, I am back on track. The exception you ask? You guess! It starts with an E. Baby steps people, baby steps.

steps

Plans for the day…
like people care,
but its about accountability… ?

  • I’m in obvious need of  a shopping list and a trip to the store
  • Wash all lettuce, make croutons from all that almost stale french bread
  • Eat well — considering myself a snacker because I am very often  uncomfortable after normal sized “meals”.
  • Finish cleaning master closet and call a charity to pick up stuff.
  • The gym – at 9:30 PM (?) I will love myself for it!
  • DRINK THE WATER

Parting shot….

funny

NO!

Fitness and good eating must start as soon as tomorrow

And tomorrow is today

As I laid in bed (in a cold room) and couldn’t get up out of bed (didn’t want to) I pondered (again) how my day would pan out. Plans vs. reality are two separate entities. The good news is that I didn’t think about waiting another day to start my food and fitness plan, but in healthier frame of mind, I pondered: do I want to have my oatmeal first, or the blueberry and spinach smoothie first? That is; which will be for breakfast.

qI finally got out of bed and turned on the heat. My thermostat has a mind of its own so setting it to do something at certain time is, moments wasted in a life time — I just doesn’t work, period. I decided to have the oatmeal first (a warm food) and will have the smoothie in a couple of hours. My choice of oatmeal is the easiest, and the best choice for me is Quaker Instant / Weight Control / Maple. Instant oatmeal isn’t the healthiest thing in the world but I digress for the extra fiber; 6g (essential in a WW plan and essential, anyway), 7g protein and the expected 3g of fat. Thems good numbers!

If I had my absolute favorite choice of instant oatmeal it would be the precooked frozen steel-cut packages from Costco. The draw back on those; expensive as hell and I only like the Maple ones. The (I think) $10.+ box of steel-cut oatmeal’ contain 6-maple and 6-blueberry. I was shocked I didn’t like the blueberry and shocked that I was IN LOVE with the maple. If all of those in the box were Maple;; SOLD! But menh… the Quaker it is, and that’s that. (too much said already about oatmeal and one of my lighter resolutions is to be less verbose!)

Thus far I have described my morning and logged my first meal (4-points breakfast) in a long while on WeightWatchers’. Has anyone tried the ActiveLink? The hardest part in WW is tracking  because (probably until now) people who are doing WeightWatchers’ and are VERY active can’t find the correct activity, duration of activity and intensity to log activity appropriately; at least I can’t but I’m over exceedingly literal and OCD in those areas — So I felt that if the Activity Link is exclusively WeightWatchers’ then it should workout very well as a tool.

The Gym Visit

There wasn’t one. Whatzzzamatteawithme? Actually, I decided to get my ass up early in the morning and hit it then. Because I’m segueing back into the stream of things I’m going to start off with the BodyPump class. I hope to do 30-minutes of cardio before, or 15-minutes before the class and 15- 30-minutes of cardio after the class; all depending on how much cardio I do before the class. The goal is a total of 40-minutes of cardio, no matter how it is distributed.

[now…written the next day; which is today…]

I’m hopeless. I didn’t get to the gym yesterday — although I was extraordinarily productive around the house – which, in the fitness world count for very little. The next gym goal was set for the 8:30 Bodypump class and the exception to that commitment would be ‘if I woke up in time’. I did not wake up in time.

Food yesterday: Also hopeless. I started out very well but dinner was sugar. All I have to say about this is that the left over apple pie was NOT good and the Hagen-daz Five was so creamy and sweet it seemed overpowering. So it hit me — remember how horrible you feel right now; and people, it was not a pleasant feeling. I was bloated, has sugar after taste in my mouth, I had guilt and anger. I had nothing but pure hatred for myself! WHY was I doing this to myself? It would be one thing if the pie had been very delicious and satisfying. No part of that crap was satisfying.

So I’ll say to myself again and again in the future: Do you really want to feel so badly and as angry and emotional as you did when you ate that crap? Answer: No, never.

On the lighter side, there is a lot of guilt and embarrassment over 5-lbs. It’s not like I gained it all back; not even close but it makes me happy to know that this bothers me — a lot. Does that make sense?

Recipe Sharing: Broccoli Cheddar soup

I could live off of this stuff, and there are worse things to eat than vegetables!

Click for the recipe: BroccoliSoup.docx

In the last photo of the soup in a bowl, I had added brown rice.

I broke this recipe down into calories and nutrition facts. One cup of soup is 96-calories, 7g fat, 7g carbs and 6g protein and 2g fiber. If you make this and want to add sherry wine or cooking sherry, go a little light on the water.

The only thing about this recipe that bugs me is that is seems to ask for too much water. . . My soups generally come out too thin and I have to add a Tbs of flour to the batch to thicken it up. My suggestions are: if you have the condensed chicken broth in a jar — just us that without diluting it in water. But then again, it could be just me; it usually is just me …. the friend who gave me this recipe swears by it and says hers never comes out thin. But… we all know that even Aunt Bee told white lies about her own recipes – :wink:.

Send me a reply if the recipe doesn’t open or you have any questions.

What I ate Wednesday

 

 

It looks like I only ate twice this week!

I’m slipping folks… gotta get those pics taken! Next week, I promise!

At the nail parlor!

A little coffee, a little bit of donuts (two donuts holes), “you pick coll-a” and voila! Pretty nails!

One tasty salad…

And a surprisingly delicious quesodillia (duly noted that quesodillia is misspelled in the photo)

And sadly that’ it! 😦