Getting back!

Finally! I hit the gym tonight at 9:00PM.

I’m feeling as though I am, or possibly experiencing some depression. I’ve never had depression (I don’t believe in it) but spending 80% of the day in bed (on the bed; to be clear) watching TV is not a good thing. At times in my life the staying on the bed watching TV is normal, but caring less or finding a reason go get up and off the bed, is not.

I knew my best medicine would be exercise… the hardest part is getting there. Today I purposely waited until the evening to go since I knew my mom was in good hands with her husband at the symphony. She’s in good hands with him at home as well but with them at the symphony I knew it was safe in assuming I wasn’t needed the house.

But, in the midst of my gloom-and-doom-fest this evening I got a text from her husband. He says that they are at dinner before the symphony and she’s having trouble finding the silverware on the table. “Knife, fork, etc.” Poor thing. I do hope she at least found the wine glass. I mean that in love (mom loves her wine with dinner).

My.heart.sank! I ate with them just two days ago and she knew of and found the silverware just fine and had no trouble eating at all. We have no surgery date yet and with this new status report… it might be useless unless it happens soon. Also with this news, the reality; is becoming a real-er reality.

Something in that message from him triggered me to get serious about getting to the gym. Strange? Why? Because an hour of distraction in a healthy way will make for a stronger me and it looks like I’m going to be needing a lot of workouts in the weeks and months to come. And because if I am having depression (I don’t think I do, I’m just not motivated to do much; and I think this is normal and understandable) news like this means that without exercise, I will only get worse and I need to stay strong!

Accomplished!

52-minutes of cardio; rowing, stair climbing and Incline Training. A little TRI of sorts — or a combo plate; you decide. I’ve improved so much on the stair climbing beast but in my mood and sense of self-esteem (being low on this day) I climbed next to a young woman who was banging it out at probably level 12 with no rest breaks. She was racing those stairs… And I felt so insignificant being on level 7 and was taking water breaks. I KNOW it was all in my imagination but she just gave me a vibe that read… you are a loser and you’re not taking this seriously. (well, she doesn’t know how hard it was to get there =D in the first place!)

So I did my 12-minutes on the climber (should have done 15) and then rowed for 17-minutes and 23-minutes on the incline trainer steadily on 21-incline at 4.5-MPH. And I had NO trouble with that. I could have done it all night. Funny what works for us and what we’re comfortable with. And, that’s exactly Andre’s point — and why he wants me on the stair climber — because it isn’t easy for me. Whatev, I did a bit of each that he wanted me to do and then the Incline Trainer where my comfort zone is.

The workout felt good, I was distracted and even at one point I was either so wrapped up in thought I didn’t notice how much time had passed, and other times I was complete in the fitness mind zone. So I got a break.

No plans for tomorrow; we don’t really make plans these days but I will head over to moms, anyway. But before that, I need to start making some calls. I can’t get a straight story out of her about whom she’s told or called. Her husband can’t give me a straight answer either and that said, getting any information out of either of them is a huge frustration and challenge. One sure thing is, nobody will be happy with me if she goes into surgery and/or dies and I never told anyone she was ill. :nono4:

So, I shall take things into my own hands. I never know if what I decide to do on her behalf is something she would want me to do or not, but the sad thing is — she won’t recognize or remember it anyway. :cry2:. Now this is not to say she isn’t coherent and looking healthy (at least I think so) – she’s just not sure of what she’s doing half the time.

ANYWAY Good for me for making that difficult step to get back to the gym; I’ve gone but in the past week and a half, only on Andre days :n:NOT GOOD.

I still couldn’t remember my password!

My goodness, what a ride this year — and it ain’t even over yet!

I’ve written!…. but never got them posted. So, here’s what’s happening and I hope to be a better blogger — I need the outlet. Read on and find out why.

I am still with my beloved personal trainer since February 2nd, but that ride stops on November 7th. I lost 52-lbs in 9-months. Yeah, that pretty remarkable but….. at the end of June I wrote the same thing: “I have lost 52-lbs’. Clearly the process slowed down since coming to a seemingly a screeching halt since July. BUT, the better news is that I have not gained any weight in epic or small proportions in all this time. I have gained miniscule amounts which were quickly addressed!  I am holding steady at 50-lbs.

Much has happened in the past few months and none of my news is positive. My professional agent has kept me in steady work since mid January and up until this past week. The contracts I have been in have been wonderful jobs but not jobs I took with any hope of being hired on full-time as part of the company. Unfortunately, and quite simply, the nature of the tasks I was hired to do have not been geared for full-time direct-hire within the company, period.The fact that I was not hired on, or one of those 1 in 5 contract workers will get hired on (a myth) with the company can be frowned upon by future potential employers, but what can I do; it’s been what is was I for the work I’ve done this year, I have been HIGHLY rated.

As well, One contract I was in let me go after holding onto me as long as they could (from 1-week to 4-months) but had to surrender me for lack of funding for the business need — of me. My agency quickly placed me in another great position and just learned that the company which gave me up — had asked for me back!

So the temping work has not been all for not and I loved the jobs I was in. Now for the bad news; the last job I exited was on September 27th and people — this is NOT the time of year to expect placement in a temp job or to get hired. 4th quarter is, THE WORST. I do think my agent will call for one little or large job or another; it’s just the waiting game.

Now for the worstest news. My mother had been diagnosed with terminal brain cancer. This came as a devastating shock and the worse news than we ever expected when she went in for a brain scan to see if she was having onset Alzheimer’s. I can assure you that the news of Altz would have been far more welcoming that this news! She is 87-years old and at the early stages of Altz we may not have ever seen a full-blown case of it with her. This worse news brings with it a very shortened life span, in terms of months, a month or days.

My head is the clouds of denial over this (always lately). She will have a brain surgery next week — we hope a scheduled appt waits and we have no specific date as of today. I won’t even talk about what could happen in surgery but we are hopeful that it will be successful and she will stay with us to live a normal life span. Mom does suffer from memory issues and getting full sentences out. It’s a tough thing to watch, a tough thing to think about and a tough thing to ‘wait for’ for sure. What does ‘wait’ mean? Wait for the appt, wait for results, wait for recovery or wait for inevitable. Just sit and wait.

How am I doing? I am numb and in denial. I spend extended amounts of time with her; whom you would never know was sick and when I have my alone time — I stay alone. I don’t particularly care about a job at this moment and if I did have one; how well would that go? I’d take off for the surgery date; and that generally that scenario might be tolerated in a real job, but would not work in a temp job, and I’d stay off work as long as it took to be sure mom is in good hands. On the other hand, I could accept a job, stay in it as long as I could and quit if I have to — burning every last bridge that I have crossed.

My fitness plan has gone down the toilet My fitness plan is in jeopardy but I won’t put up with gain…. But it is all I can do to tear myself away from doing nothing to get to the gym; and even then, only on the reaming days that I have left to train — I will not be renewing a 4th time.

Must, must, must get back on the rails! Just before all the drama began this year, I learned by experience and through my personal trainer that rowing is an amazing cardio workout that does display quick results. My trainer likes to see me on the Stair Master climber — something I hate but it too will show results right away. My trainer wants me to use the Stair Master climber for 15-minutes per day and then the Precor Elliptical ATM hate that even more, for 15-minutes and/or the rowing machine That’s all he asks of me.

Do you think I can do that in my state? YES! I realized that honestly; I can’t give up everything just to sit there and watch mom… you know. Until she gets her surgery or has an ‘episode’ as a result of the tumors, we are all ‘on closely guarded watch’ but on the other hand, I do need to take care of myself — at least for 1-hour day, right?

Well, I guess I should get something done today. :eyesrolling:

~tootles…

Pushing the envelope!

Heinous crime!

This weekends eating, that is. There must be something about a stress fracture that puts on an appetite. What I really think the problem is, is change.

I’ve never enjoyed the workouts; just the results of the workouts. I did partially enjoy the incline climbing and the power walking and the anticipation of running again. Despite that I have more than 13-5K races, 1 4-miler and 1-8K on my race wall — yes, race numbers are framed and on my office wall.. Despite that my trainer forbade to me run at the gym for two reasons.

The first, because he felt that the (at the time unidentified) injury to my foot was due to change in weight and stamina. He says that sometimes when people has less weight and have been in training their gait and stance changes and that could have caused some trauma to the foot because of stance changes and such things. We both thought that is what the problem was at first and I was happy to think it would all clear up. Not irresponsibility on the part of my trainer  — he only knew what I told him about the pain and he never saw it swollen.

The only time that he’d seen the foot nekid is when I’d take the shoe off for the weigh-in (no, no socks and this drives him insane)! The welling always went down while in the sneaker so he never saw it swollen and between you and me, that made me think he thought I was making it all up.

I continued to do the jumping he asked me to do and on one occasion that jumping over the line thing finally did the foot in. More swelling, more pain and so much so that I had to give up the treadmill. I told my trainer — NO more jumping! He asked why; like nothing had happened and I told him. Finally he paid attention to me and canceled my appointments until I saw a doctor. But again, he can only know what I tell him.

But anyway and sorry I got off track… My trainer forbade me to run because he felt something was going on with my foot back in February and the second reason is that he wanted to teach me to run. I sure looked forward to that! He wanted to get my posture in tack… and we’re still working on that one… he wanted to get my strides right and so on. Now, with the foot injury and my foot being in the pretty black shoe cast, all I can do is ride the recumbent bike for an hour and that my friends, is not that challenging. Doctor’s orders: No tension or high speeds. Just a nice leisurely magazine reading kind of speed. And that’s been bumming me out.

Somewhere in this mix; the workout boredom perhaps comes this appetite and the beginnings of old behavior!!! I’ve eaten things that are borderline legal on my Trainer’s food list and eating too many portions of the things that are borderline on my trainers list.  PUSHING THE ENVELOPE.

I pushed it yesterday too and while I tried to “be good” today… right now I have the very last of something I should not eat in the oven. I wasn’t going to but… like the old attitude: Just this once, or just this one time and then that will be it!

And I will eat the forbidden food tonight! I hope to enjoy it and feel so guilty about it that I lose sleep over it! I mean that!

Purchased round 2

I have 4-sessions left on my first training ticket and I managed to find the money; the right credit card to make a purchase for a 2nd round — another 25-weeks; two days a week training for the next 3-months. This is no time; or maybe no better time to sin and repent! We are; my trainer and me 1/2 way to my goal weight. 38-lbs gone and about 35-lbs to go. Halfway through this I am cheating. This must stop.

And it will. It really will. It’s easier to eat right at work because there is a distraction — called work itself and I cannot eat what I don’t take with me — so there lies the answer! And besides — after I eat what I eat tonight, there will be none of it left and nothing bad left to eat.

I almost think this is an expected hiccup in this phase of it all. And it will pass.

Now that I am through yelling at myself

No great things happening in life, but no bad things either. I am so much smaller so that makes all in the world right!  I’m still in my contract job and they have asked for me for yet another week. But they have told me it’s unfair to keep telling every Thursday if I’m staying on or not (agreed — even though I appreciate the money, they’ve kept me 6-weeks longer than planned) so that I can get busy on finding a real job. Unfortunately this is not a company that can afford to hire me at this time. However, they want me back in 2-weeks for 2-more weeks to cover someones vacation. If available, I’ll do it but I hope to be unavailable.

The work situation is bitter-sweet in terms of leaving. I’ve been there long enough to blend in with this dual family owned business and it feels like home away from home. The pay was quite well considering the duties of the job, the easy commute and the early hours of 7:30 to 4:00. They will miss me and my purpose there. Maybe if I do go back for those 2-weeks they’ll realize the need to keep me. Or maybe I’ll find a better job. Who knows?

The dove on my window sill is still nesting. Mom and Dad do take turns with the sitting on it (the egg) task and today was day 15 since the egg was laid. Theoretically that egg should be cracking open any minute. I wish it would hurry up and happen! I’ve been home most of all weekend and available to watch this miracle. My guess is that it will hatch when I am not home.

However, looking at this egg — photo taken this morning while mom and pop went off to do something else.. it looks like the shell is being pecked at from the inside. But, no chick yet.

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The weekend

Highly productive and highly extremely relaxing!

Saturday:

Training with my trainer and the usual shop fest afterwards. Generally I tend to want to go straight home from training, about 8:00 a.m. to crawl back into bed where I wanted to be in the first place. But generally I tend to stop at the grocery store or Walmart to get some tasks done. This particular morning I needed milk from the grocery store and a few returns at Walmart that landed me carousing the store.

Then, suddenly with some energy, at home I began the outside yard work — good to be outside, it was warm and it just felt good to be out there before the neighbor kids headed out to their back yard and make all kinds of annoying kids noises.

A nice nap — I just plain fell asleep watching a little TV.

Nothing exciting for a Saturday night and I went to bed earlier than usual.

Sunday:

Slept in until 6:00 and then until 8:30. Good enough!

Breakfast in bed, more yard work, food prep for next week; I grilled chicken and cut it up

Watched some TV

Backed up my iPhone.

Updated my iPhone.

Simple weekend! I love it!

On Monday..

I really DO want to get to the gym directly after work. I can be there by 4:30 and it’s not going to be too crowded to change. I want my trainer to see me there — when I go in at 8:30 or 8:00 he’s usually gone by then. Hopefully he’ll teach me to use the rowing machine. He says I’ll get a better calorie burn from it than the bike and as part of this battle on my upper body — he wants me on this! Yes, it stress fracture healing friendly!

 

A little more than annoyed

Yeah! I’m a little more than annoyed that my BodyBugg will not record my 1-hour recumbent bike, rides as physical activity.

There’s nothing worse than going to the gym for the sole purpose of getting logged in at the counter, a possible sighting of me by my trainer, for good measure, and the hope to add 60-minutes of physical activity on my BodyBugg. (I said sole purpose because tonight — I didn’t feel like going to the gym and forced myself…. to go to to the gym for the sole purpose of getting logged in at the counter, a possible sighting of me by my trainer, for good measure, and… burn some calories of course, as well!

How disappointing to come home, sync, and realize that only 38-minutes of physical activity was recorded. What a waste!

Well, not really a waste of time but people… In reality I had 38-minutes of physical activity throughout the day and 60-minutes of cardio for a grand total of 1-hour and 38-minutes.

I am driven in exercise by numbers and personal competition. And awesome data. Now the BodyBugg WILL record the activity as daily activity – that part that counts calories again expenditures… BUT, the BodyBugg will not record any data in the “Physical” activity data so that is rather disappointing; at least visually. That said, my data records are showing a decline — when there is not one. BUT, reading the threads on Facebook about this topic on BodyMediaFIT, many people have complained about a bugg in the BodyBugg for bike riders.

So there you have it. When my foot heals I’m going to the treadmill for kick ass running. NOT! But just power walking and working up to a goal will increase my calorie burns and so on…

If it sounds like I’m more than a little unimpressed with my physical activity and progress — you’d be right. I mean, I’m still losing and in fact very rapidly. It’s the kind of loss where you say to yourself; I wonder if there is something wrong with me? I had to laugh at that thought when I had it! Like, are you kidding me? 3-months of hardcore cardio (sans 2-weeks) and 2 major physical training session per week — and I’m asking myself if there is something wrong with me losing so much weight?

Girl needs a reality check!!

My problem is though that I can’t get real excited about being on a recumbent bike. My heart rate rose to a whopping 89 this evening during a 1-hour ride. I’m not allowed to have tension set or to ride too fast. So, there you have it.

caprisTonight I stopped in at the Sports Authority. It’s conveniently located next door to the gym. I bought a new pair of  workout Capri just below the knee workout pants. $40 (I know!) but they have the Nike swoosh on the lower left front leg — looks kinda cool and after all, I hadn’t been putting in a lot of effort in the workout leggings while I was fat — black is black no matter the brand… but some of them are getting pretty thin… Those aren’t them in the photo, but that kind.

May 1st is the day I get to go without my cast shoe. My foot feels fine and looks fine but at times I am reminded that it might not be as right as I think it is so I’m going to be a good girl and see this through for the full 4-weeks. 18-days, or 2-weeks and 4-days left in the shoe. But shhhhh! I’m not wearing the shoe at the moment. No worries on that as long as I remember to walk flat, no bending and especially to bend my foot under the desk like I always do. I rarely have the shoe off and even wear it when I get up from a dead sleep to go to the bathroom. As for right now; I just changed from my workout legging to the new ones to see how well they fit. And, that’s why.

I’m expecting! (?)

I thought I’d never get around to posting this one…

I’m Pregnant! OK, Expecting!

And actually, no — it’s not me. But there is going to be a birth “on” the house in about 14-17-days about 5-days!

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I was able to be lazy yesterday a week ago last Saturday for a few hours — so nice for a change but not until the clothing exchange mess was cleaned up — more on that later. But I was sitting on my bed watching some DVR’d programs and I noticed the Dove ‘couple’ scoping out the geranium planters that sit outside my bedroom window. And, it’s very unusual for birds to land or swoop the area — with the exception of humming birds.

So when these two were (evidently) looking for a place to make a nest — they chose my window sill. I’ very excited and it all makes sense now because that bird didn’t flinch when got off the bed, shut the shudders or took pictures of her sittin’ there.

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Anyways… I’ll get back to you on this event in about 14-days. Caveat: And now getting back to you about 10-days after writing this; Mama just sits on that egg for endless periods of time.

Weight

I’m still no longer having (as much) difficulty with my foot.  Believe it or not the foot has seemingly healed; or the situation gone away until I started my last contract job. In that job, lots of getting up and down out of the chair to walk back and forth to the printer. Crazy work and had they put a printer on my desk — things might be different today. Still a present injury, dormant or active is an injury. If certain activities cause flair ups, then there is still a problem. That said, nobody to blame by physiology and bad timing.  But still, the getting up and down out of the seat every 10-seconds is stress on what ever is ailing the foot… and I’ll find out exactly what that is on Wednesday morning at my doctor appt.

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The photo above shows my foot after the swelling goes down in the evenings… once I relaxed and got off of it. The amount of swelling during the day was horrid! It was at time literally puffing out over the sides of my shoes and making imprints from the shoes. So why didn’t I get out of the shoes? Flats, wedges, flip-flops… it didn’t matter — nothing changed anything.

And days later… I had my doctor appt:

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Diagnosis:

1. “CLOSED FRACTURE OF FOOT” Healed left 5th metatarsal fracture.
(X-ray revealed a recently healed fracture likely as soon ago (oxy?) as early February.

2. Clinical findings for early left 4th metatarsal stress fracture.
(thanks to re-pronating as I walked day-to-day and ran and climbed; adjusting foot during exercise to avoid the pain).

At the end of the day, damage to both 4th and 5th metatarsals! :afraid4:

The lovely cast shoe is protecting  this new stress fracture from becoming a real full on fracture — it was just a matter of time.

Recommendations:
Wear either a shoe cast or non-flexing shoe for 4-weeks. No weight-bearing exercise such as

treadmill, stair master, jogging/running. Even sparing joint sparing elliptical not recommended at this phase.

May resume these activities after 4-weeks if swelling and tenderness are resolved.

***MAY DO***:
Lifting, toning and weight work. Recumbent bike at high frequency, low load.
So I continue with compound exercise — pushing and pulling things but ‘A” has me pressing some difficult weight and sometimes at levels that I cannot budge.

So I can keep training then and try to learn to love the recumbent bike. All is not lost!

And that’s just exactly what I am doing. I ride the recumbent bike with no set tension for 45- 60-minutes and that seems to be enough light cardio to barely break a sweat glow but does record nicely on my BodyBugg activity report. So, if it’s good enough activity for the BodyBugg, it’s good enough for me.  AND, at my Weigh-in last Saturday I was down 2-lbs. and as of today, maybe another pound and a half.

Anyways, wearing the shoe cast is extremely helpful and it’s easy to wear. Not pretty, but easy to wear and easy to walk in — like normal. The swelling went away almost right away because there is no real pressure on the front of the foot; mostly in the heel area. There is also about 1-1/2-inch lift in the show so wearing a low wedge is perfect to keep the same balance on each side. To be honest, I haven’t given up too much for/with this injury — other than the fact that I can’t do the intense cardio. I walk normally

Have you notice my weight loss on the left hand side rail? 37-lbs gone.

Tardy again, but at the end of the day; I benefit

“A” was late this morning — again.

Whatzamattawitchu,man?!

But, the longer he is late the more cardio I get in. So I don’t mind that much — what else do I have to do at 6:00 a.m.? Of course today… expecting him to be late I didn’t get in until 6:25 to do the prer-cardio. Still, what was supposed to be about 30- 40-minutes of cardio before the training session turned into 60-minutes. All in all, I am the one who benefits by his lateness. I’d never tell him that — but I do tell him every Saturday – “that’s OK, I got in more cardio time…”. I’m probably too nice but for real — any opportunity to put more data on the BodyBugg is A-OK with me.He killed me today! Initially I thought that if he was late then I’d get out of some of the training time — yes, not a healthy attitude about training but it’s just a thought, not actions! Anyway, HIS 8:00 cancelled so he worked me through to 8:30 making our session 1-hour instead of the normal 50-minute session.

Saturday weigh-in report

3-lbs gone this week, 17-lbs gone since training and a grand total of 27-lbs this year. Next Saturday… look for 30-lbs gone!

about RUNNING

“A” hasn’t let me do any running yet; just stair climbing and incline trainer and power walking. I told him today that I am terribly bored with my cardio and very antsy to get to running — more weight loss, more motivation and so on. But, he says no. He pointed out today that I needed to keep training for balance and posture (he is DEAD RIGHT and today’s brutal workout was all focused on posture) and then we can work on gait and pronation and such things. I asked him then, “…so you’re going to teach me how to run correctly”? He said yes. I said… Good. I don’t think that when I ran and in all the races I ran years ago that I ran “correctly”. I may be in for a big surprise!

As soon as I started training I did do some running in wrong shoes and did some good damage to the bottom of my foot (some of you might remember that). I was limping around for weeks and unstable on my feet but still doing the cardio and training under his watchful eye. He remembers that so he’s being very – cautionary. but he does need to remember that I am running in the Coronado 4th of July 5K (of the 5 and 10K).

Anyway, with the cardio routine I do now; power walking on incline – -I do 3+miles a day and a 5K in about 40-minutes (or so). I do this fast and easily (powerful power walking) and I’m breathing just through my nose. I can only imagine that by July 4th, by walking alone some running that I could finish under 40-mins without much effort; but I’m in it to win it on the 4th so I’ll do way more than walking in this 5K for sure so I’m hoping to make 33-minutes and a PR.

12 of my friends and spouses are doing a HS Reunion Stay-Cay in town our High School Reunion and a multitude of festivities that go along with the 4th. We have rented all of the rooms at a B&B and I have bragged to them that I am doing this race — and that they need to get their hung-over asses to finish line to cheer me in. So, there is some pressure on this one — I must deliver!

Anyhoo- Boy! did Andre pick on me today! Eat more food; OK, he’s right on that one. Wear socks with your shoes when you are on the treadmill… and one other thing that I can’t remember…

It was a long  and trying week so it’s no wonder…

That after training I came straight home, showered and got onto the computer followed by putting myself back in bed — and fell into a short nap.  I hate that I waste my Saturday’s this way and this has been consistent. My food intake this last week was horrific (low) and “A” warned me for the thousandth time that I needed to eat way more protein. I told him that he has been so strict on food and based on the food pics that I send him he says I shouldn’t eat this with that, or take that off the plate next time, or don’t eat that at night or after a workout… Heck I told him that it was hard to know what to do so sometimes … I just don’t. (eat). “A” told me that since I am steadily losing weight the timing doesn’t have to be SO strict  that it hinders me from eating.

Oh the life of a contract worker!

So now, there is this…

My agent got me work right away. He got me assigned to a day job and thanked me profusely for doing this particular 1-day job. The job would start Thursday and end Thursday. I got a kick out of accepting the job; this meant that my agent had kept me unemployed for only 3-days. I was told that this would be a 1-day job in an administrative role — helping out.

Helping out? Thank you BodyBugg for showing me just how active and hard-working I was on this last simple “helping out” role. I wore 3″ wedges, black dress slacks and a nice top. My job was to, one-by-one remove 98 3- and 4-inch binders from tall shelves, remove the contents and place the contents in a shipping box. I stood in this dark little cubby hole where the shelves are and there was heater air blowing down on me.  I completed this task aver 6-hours of standing — never sat and then when on to the chore of moving files from one old file cabinet into one new file cabinet.

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All the activity above, the peaked areas is me working and sweating. At 12:00PM you see a gaping hole. I had lunch and since I didn’t take one; I was reduced to a vending machine and I bought pop-chips; something my trainer does not endorse.

Once I got home — and let me tell ya… everything ached but when I looked at my activity log; how wonderful! I exceeded my steps quota, I exceeded my activity/calories burned quota, I exceeded my time of exercises quota and so on.  That said, I got a full 6-hour body workout and got paid as well. Thursday’s are my day off from the gym so I especially appreciated all of this “extra credit” on my activity log!

The company asked me back today (Friday) and I told them yes, but I had a morning interview and I could return after Noon.

I interviewed for a job this morning and they hired me on the spot. I’ll be there about 3-weeks and this will be a delightful gig! More of same; “helping out” by helping the company catch up on back work as well as being, basically an office manager. The ladies that I will be supporting seem like they are going to be a hoot to work with and I am very excited about this particular opportunity.

But in the meantime, there is no rest for the weary. I interviewed at 10:00 a.m. so I had to be there 15-minutes early, I had to be dressed and ready to go allowing myself a good 1-hour possibility-of-getting-lost lead time.

makeupSo you guys, here’s what I did: I dressed in my dress slacks and sleeveless knit. I wore flip-flops (had good shoes in the car). I wore my Old Navy Sweatshirt over everything (also had suit jacket in the car). My face was clean, my hair was clean. I left the house w/out makeup and the primary goal was to find the place, then go to parking lot and put on my makeup. Despite that I knew the company was NOT difficult to find, my agent said it was and so I thought it would be. It wasn’t. I think they say that so that the client will be concerned about being on time and leave earlier. That strategy certainly worked for me!

Anyways, I found the place, did my makeup, put on my shoes and swapped the sweatshirt for my suit jacket. Since I was early they got started with me early. The interview was brief and they told me to start on Monday. Woo Hoo — that was that!

But then I had to scurry home to change clothes and go back to the company I worked for yesterday. They let me go early — thank GOD because one of the tasks for today was to help this guy pack up his office. Seriously; what’s up with the man-labor? I stated with helping him but it was VERY uncomfortable. I think he felt a little bit exposed and intimidated so he politely asked me to go finish the other project and he would come get me after he assessed his things better and decided how he wanted to proceed. Short story — I finished my other project, he disappeared. They let me go home – end of story. I was thrilled to have the afternoon off.

However, still there is no rest for the weary. I have to hit the gym tonight; likely around 7:00 PM and THEN I’m free until 5:00 AM when I get up to go back to the gym for my training and weigh in day.

Speaking of weighing in…

wI’ll be honest here — it’s just easier to say it than dance around it — My highest weight was 244. I started training at 238.5 and on my home scale I am now down to 218. Please note that I am very tall. Generally I run two lbs lower at home than at the gym; stands to reason since I am dressed at the gym and because my digital scale is going to be a little different from the medical scale at the gym. If I’ 218 today at home, it’s possible that I’ll weight 217.5 tomorrow and that will give me a solid 220 (I HOPE) tomorrow morning with my trainer.  My last weigh-in weight was 223.5 but that was 2-weeks ago; both “A” and I missed training last Saturday.

I’m not sure that I will make 218 on ‘his’ scale tomorrow but you can be sure that I am going to eat a great deal of asparagus tonight. When I go to the gym this evening I’m pretty sure that I am going to start running on the Treadmills rather than hill climbing and power walking. “A” didn’t want me to start running because I had that foot issue last month.

Overnight and finally, the foot pain and swelling miraculously went away …and lately ‘m itching for the running. I plan on running in a 5K on the 4th of July so it’s best to get started. AND, I think my weight loss is slowing down; that’s kind of natural but I need to get more calorie burn. And I need a challenge. “A” said I shouldn’t start running yet because then I won’t have anything to work up to. Right now, “I” need something to work up to and to challenge myself. I also realized that we are almost half way through the training and ….. lordy! I have no idea what I should do about training — after training. Go at it again 1-time a week? Go at it on my own and then fail and go back to training?

It’s been a little disconcerting that lately I have run into a few people who are doing WeightWatchers and such things who report that they are losing at about the same rate that I am. When you weigh in all the cardio I do every day and the expensive training and all the things I cannot eat… I begin to wonder…. hummm…. but then again, I remember that I’ve tried to lose on my own and it didn’t work. Today I am sitting here comfortably in (if not a little bit too big) a pair of jeans that I have died to, not tried to but was dying to get into for 4-years.Now that I am in them — outdated, loose, and did I say outdated? I’ll never wear these again!

Anyways, I’m not sure those other people can say the same… they’re not working out (they say so) much less getting rigorous training so they may have lost the same amount of weight but they had not received the amount of body changes that I have thus far, and the changes that I will see moving forward. So there! Now I feel better.

So I’m just rambling out of the pure joy of actually having the time to! I am really looking forward to life after this “evening” workout but saddened that I have to get up at the crack of dawn for training. That said, I look forward to a full weekend of ME time before I start work again full-time; for a while.

Off to rest — until 6:00 PM. Me thinks now that time at the gym will be 7:30.