Pushing the envelope!

Heinous crime!

This weekends eating, that is. There must be something about a stress fracture that puts on an appetite. What I really think the problem is, is change.

I’ve never enjoyed the workouts; just the results of the workouts. I did partially enjoy the incline climbing and the power walking and the anticipation of running again. Despite that I have more than 13-5K races, 1 4-miler and 1-8K on my race wall — yes, race numbers are framed and on my office wall.. Despite that my trainer forbade to me run at the gym for two reasons.

The first, because he felt that the (at the time unidentified) injury to my foot was due to change in weight and stamina. He says that sometimes when people has less weight and have been in training their gait and stance changes and that could have caused some trauma to the foot because of stance changes and such things. We both thought that is what the problem was at first and I was happy to think it would all clear up. Not irresponsibility on the part of my trainer  — he only knew what I told him about the pain and he never saw it swollen.

The only time that he’d seen the foot nekid is when I’d take the shoe off for the weigh-in (no, no socks and this drives him insane)! The welling always went down while in the sneaker so he never saw it swollen and between you and me, that made me think he thought I was making it all up.

I continued to do the jumping he asked me to do and on one occasion that jumping over the line thing finally did the foot in. More swelling, more pain and so much so that I had to give up the treadmill. I told my trainer — NO more jumping! He asked why; like nothing had happened and I told him. Finally he paid attention to me and canceled my appointments until I saw a doctor. But again, he can only know what I tell him.

But anyway and sorry I got off track… My trainer forbade me to run because he felt something was going on with my foot back in February and the second reason is that he wanted to teach me to run. I sure looked forward to that! He wanted to get my posture in tack… and we’re still working on that one… he wanted to get my strides right and so on. Now, with the foot injury and my foot being in the pretty black shoe cast, all I can do is ride the recumbent bike for an hour and that my friends, is not that challenging. Doctor’s orders: No tension or high speeds. Just a nice leisurely magazine reading kind of speed. And that’s been bumming me out.

Somewhere in this mix; the workout boredom perhaps comes this appetite and the beginnings of old behavior!!! I’ve eaten things that are borderline legal on my Trainer’s food list and eating too many portions of the things that are borderline on my trainers list.  PUSHING THE ENVELOPE.

I pushed it yesterday too and while I tried to “be good” today… right now I have the very last of something I should not eat in the oven. I wasn’t going to but… like the old attitude: Just this once, or just this one time and then that will be it!

And I will eat the forbidden food tonight! I hope to enjoy it and feel so guilty about it that I lose sleep over it! I mean that!

Purchased round 2

I have 4-sessions left on my first training ticket and I managed to find the money; the right credit card to make a purchase for a 2nd round — another 25-weeks; two days a week training for the next 3-months. This is no time; or maybe no better time to sin and repent! We are; my trainer and me 1/2 way to my goal weight. 38-lbs gone and about 35-lbs to go. Halfway through this I am cheating. This must stop.

And it will. It really will. It’s easier to eat right at work because there is a distraction — called work itself and I cannot eat what I don’t take with me — so there lies the answer! And besides — after I eat what I eat tonight, there will be none of it left and nothing bad left to eat.

I almost think this is an expected hiccup in this phase of it all. And it will pass.

Now that I am through yelling at myself

No great things happening in life, but no bad things either. I am so much smaller so that makes all in the world right!  I’m still in my contract job and they have asked for me for yet another week. But they have told me it’s unfair to keep telling every Thursday if I’m staying on or not (agreed — even though I appreciate the money, they’ve kept me 6-weeks longer than planned) so that I can get busy on finding a real job. Unfortunately this is not a company that can afford to hire me at this time. However, they want me back in 2-weeks for 2-more weeks to cover someones vacation. If available, I’ll do it but I hope to be unavailable.

The work situation is bitter-sweet in terms of leaving. I’ve been there long enough to blend in with this dual family owned business and it feels like home away from home. The pay was quite well considering the duties of the job, the easy commute and the early hours of 7:30 to 4:00. They will miss me and my purpose there. Maybe if I do go back for those 2-weeks they’ll realize the need to keep me. Or maybe I’ll find a better job. Who knows?

The dove on my window sill is still nesting. Mom and Dad do take turns with the sitting on it (the egg) task and today was day 15 since the egg was laid. Theoretically that egg should be cracking open any minute. I wish it would hurry up and happen! I’ve been home most of all weekend and available to watch this miracle. My guess is that it will hatch when I am not home.

However, looking at this egg — photo taken this morning while mom and pop went off to do something else.. it looks like the shell is being pecked at from the inside. But, no chick yet.

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The weekend

Highly productive and highly extremely relaxing!

Saturday:

Training with my trainer and the usual shop fest afterwards. Generally I tend to want to go straight home from training, about 8:00 a.m. to crawl back into bed where I wanted to be in the first place. But generally I tend to stop at the grocery store or Walmart to get some tasks done. This particular morning I needed milk from the grocery store and a few returns at Walmart that landed me carousing the store.

Then, suddenly with some energy, at home I began the outside yard work — good to be outside, it was warm and it just felt good to be out there before the neighbor kids headed out to their back yard and make all kinds of annoying kids noises.

A nice nap — I just plain fell asleep watching a little TV.

Nothing exciting for a Saturday night and I went to bed earlier than usual.

Sunday:

Slept in until 6:00 and then until 8:30. Good enough!

Breakfast in bed, more yard work, food prep for next week; I grilled chicken and cut it up

Watched some TV

Backed up my iPhone.

Updated my iPhone.

Simple weekend! I love it!

On Monday..

I really DO want to get to the gym directly after work. I can be there by 4:30 and it’s not going to be too crowded to change. I want my trainer to see me there — when I go in at 8:30 or 8:00 he’s usually gone by then. Hopefully he’ll teach me to use the rowing machine. He says I’ll get a better calorie burn from it than the bike and as part of this battle on my upper body — he wants me on this! Yes, it stress fracture healing friendly!

 

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I’m expecting! (?)

I thought I’d never get around to posting this one…

I’m Pregnant! OK, Expecting!

And actually, no — it’s not me. But there is going to be a birth “on” the house in about 14-17-days about 5-days!

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I was able to be lazy yesterday a week ago last Saturday for a few hours — so nice for a change but not until the clothing exchange mess was cleaned up — more on that later. But I was sitting on my bed watching some DVR’d programs and I noticed the Dove ‘couple’ scoping out the geranium planters that sit outside my bedroom window. And, it’s very unusual for birds to land or swoop the area — with the exception of humming birds.

So when these two were (evidently) looking for a place to make a nest — they chose my window sill. I’ very excited and it all makes sense now because that bird didn’t flinch when got off the bed, shut the shudders or took pictures of her sittin’ there.

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Anyways… I’ll get back to you on this event in about 14-days. Caveat: And now getting back to you about 10-days after writing this; Mama just sits on that egg for endless periods of time.

Weight

I’m still no longer having (as much) difficulty with my foot.  Believe it or not the foot has seemingly healed; or the situation gone away until I started my last contract job. In that job, lots of getting up and down out of the chair to walk back and forth to the printer. Crazy work and had they put a printer on my desk — things might be different today. Still a present injury, dormant or active is an injury. If certain activities cause flair ups, then there is still a problem. That said, nobody to blame by physiology and bad timing.  But still, the getting up and down out of the seat every 10-seconds is stress on what ever is ailing the foot… and I’ll find out exactly what that is on Wednesday morning at my doctor appt.

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The photo above shows my foot after the swelling goes down in the evenings… once I relaxed and got off of it. The amount of swelling during the day was horrid! It was at time literally puffing out over the sides of my shoes and making imprints from the shoes. So why didn’t I get out of the shoes? Flats, wedges, flip-flops… it didn’t matter — nothing changed anything.

And days later… I had my doctor appt:

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Diagnosis:

1. “CLOSED FRACTURE OF FOOT” Healed left 5th metatarsal fracture.
(X-ray revealed a recently healed fracture likely as soon ago (oxy?) as early February.

2. Clinical findings for early left 4th metatarsal stress fracture.
(thanks to re-pronating as I walked day-to-day and ran and climbed; adjusting foot during exercise to avoid the pain).

At the end of the day, damage to both 4th and 5th metatarsals! :afraid4:

The lovely cast shoe is protecting  this new stress fracture from becoming a real full on fracture — it was just a matter of time.

Recommendations:
Wear either a shoe cast or non-flexing shoe for 4-weeks. No weight-bearing exercise such as

treadmill, stair master, jogging/running. Even sparing joint sparing elliptical not recommended at this phase.

May resume these activities after 4-weeks if swelling and tenderness are resolved.

***MAY DO***:
Lifting, toning and weight work. Recumbent bike at high frequency, low load.
So I continue with compound exercise — pushing and pulling things but ‘A” has me pressing some difficult weight and sometimes at levels that I cannot budge.

So I can keep training then and try to learn to love the recumbent bike. All is not lost!

And that’s just exactly what I am doing. I ride the recumbent bike with no set tension for 45- 60-minutes and that seems to be enough light cardio to barely break a sweat glow but does record nicely on my BodyBugg activity report. So, if it’s good enough activity for the BodyBugg, it’s good enough for me.  AND, at my Weigh-in last Saturday I was down 2-lbs. and as of today, maybe another pound and a half.

Anyways, wearing the shoe cast is extremely helpful and it’s easy to wear. Not pretty, but easy to wear and easy to walk in — like normal. The swelling went away almost right away because there is no real pressure on the front of the foot; mostly in the heel area. There is also about 1-1/2-inch lift in the show so wearing a low wedge is perfect to keep the same balance on each side. To be honest, I haven’t given up too much for/with this injury — other than the fact that I can’t do the intense cardio. I walk normally

Have you notice my weight loss on the left hand side rail? 37-lbs gone.

So long, 32!

Locked OUT!!

locked outI had to rest my password to get into this dusty old blog but to change it, I had to be able to get into my email account — which I also couldn’t log into. Lotsa work — but here I am.

THIRTY TWO POUNDS ARE GONE!

You guys wouldn’t recognize me and neither do I!  I feel the same of course — but when I see a reflection in a mirror or window or when I put on much smaller sized jeans and blouses fit… Then I know it’s all true.

Life as a smaller person is so much simpler. It’s so easy to ‘just throw something on’ in the morning or evenings to go out. Not having to worry about trying things on and how tight clothes will be or how badly I look is such a fabulous relief.

Now mind you… 32-lbs gone is not the end all. I have 5-lbs to go before leaving the ‘mildly’ obese category. I’m very tall and noncurvy so I’m carrying that classification pretty well without looking what I weigh. I have at least exactly 32-lbs more to lose. But again, I am at a weight and height and have the right build to look adequate at this weight (for now).

On the downside, I have a foot injury that I have chosen to ignore for several weeks; like 8. The foot seemed to have healed itself but revered to the issue. My doctor cousin says that I probably have a March Fracture (stress fracture) and that it may have healed itself only to be aggravated (broken). This round, this is an issue that is breaking my spirit and I finally had to make a doctor’s appointment. My trainer knows that the injury exists but he only sees my foot after I’m on the treadmill, in shoes and because I’m in the shoes the swelling goes away. He has not seen the size (swelling) of the foot otherwise. I told him it’s an issue for me but he’s just not aware of how painful it is or how much I feel that I shouldn’t be working out — and so I keep him at bay. He does think it’s Planters Fasticas (sp?) but my doctor cousin says that’s unlikely in the front are of the foot.

So, shit.

It’s problematic all around!

My appointment is NEXT Wednesday so… stay tuned. Returning from the doctor with a boot on my leg will obviously hinder some of my working out, could hinder my work if they think I shouldn’t, or won’t be able to do the job if I can’t be walking around.

And speaking of employment and the life of a contractor — I’m in week 3 of this contract and it’s looking more and more like there will be a week 4, and 5. I was told they wanted me for “at least” another week and yet last Friday they asked me / said to me, “You’re here with us next week, right”?  That’s kind of mixed message?

Anyways, I’m back from my cardio session that seemed like a big waste of time but yet just enough cardio and steps to exceed my daily quota. Even though my cardio has subsided quite a bit, I still do it and I still managed to lose 3-more lbs at my Saturday training day and weigh in. Also, Saturday was the month end measuring to. 5-inches off my girth, 4-inches off chest/back, 2 inches off arms and 2-inches off thighs. (each).

My trainer had asked me to send him photos of everything that I eat. I send him some nice looking photos so I decided to doctor them up and use them in my WIAW (What I ate Wednesday) post. That’s posted Wednesday. I’ve wanted to do this for weeks now and I just keep missing Wednesday.

In the meantime… Enjoy my Easter Dinner (I didn’t! Pretty, but all veggies and no chicken or steaks… I dunno. I was a guest – I ate very healthy and came home hungry! I invited some of those people at the brunch over later for a damn glass of wine and some snacks!).

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